Semakin Membesar

Stress..stress..stress..banyak betul dugaan & ujian yang saya perlu lalui tahun ni..sabar je la kan? Nak buat camne..Tapi seriously rasa annoying 'tak betul' pun ada juga. Sebab apa? One of the reason is when  i see my butt and my thigh, rasa macam nak kill myself ~~.

I am (dot..dot..dot..kgs) and I am 164cm's and I am apparently getting fatter already. I never really thought of myself as skinny but I'd like to. What can I do to start becoming slimmer? Kene control makan ke? Please don't tell me to accept myself for what I am. I'm not asking to become model or anything. I just want to loose weight because I look like pooh bear at the moment. I lost confident level, sumpah. I know I'm a big eater. I hate when that happens and I hate being fat.

Kenapa lately asyik fikir pasal my butt and my thigh? Entah lah, mungkin sebab dah penat ada saiz macam ini saja and baju pulak banyak dah tak boleh pakai. Belum kawen lagi dah mcm gini rupenya apatah lagi kalau dah kawen nanti. Oh can't imagine that. Suami mana yang tak nak isteri dia nampak cantik, pandai jaga family and pandai jaga diri sendiri jugak.
kan kan sayang? Tapi, kalau awak gemuk ke, buncit ke, saya tak kesah. Sayang saya tak pernah berubah, saya terima seadanya diri awak. maklumla saya kan pandai masak (eceh..ceh.cehh!) ofcourse la awak jadi gemuk.HAHA

Saya rasa lemak kat situ dah tepu, saturated fat. Sekarang hidup tak berapa nak relaks sangat, quit busy everyday. But saya nak try jugaklah berjinak-jinak balik untuk buat senaman like jogging ke *determine saja, ha-ha. Senaman konon. first2 semangat lah..2week after...Ha-ha ( i think you know what i mean). Bangun pagi pun susah.Pantang nampak makanan, laju saja. What should I do now? I tried to do squating exercise, for 2 days now. Kita tengok lagi seminggu turun tak ukur lilit? Ha-ha,  Grr. Sesiapa yang rasa ada idea yang bermanfaat lagi efektif untuk kecilkan lower part aku ini, you can comment me. Pretty please? ...

saya mesti kuat! mesti nekad!

oh really tired........
haiihh-_-

♥ kerana....aku cinta kamu ♥

Bismillah..

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah...  

Sorry,the same old story, again and again...its about Mr. Handsome. sorry i can adore you from far.They already know about Mr. Handsome and  he is YOU. Okay ,we're just friends right now. I know it's wrong. And frankly speaking , yes , I realise , it sounds wrong , having a crush on someone's who are not suitable and far from you. So , I think I need to get this silly crush out of my head. I feel horrible. Really. 

I'm so sorry Mr. Handsome. I feel so wrong right now. I know I'm not supposed to like you , not that soon , I mean not now. Not when I know you don't feel the same , not ever. 
I know , you are really happy with your life But , I'm terribly sorry , I can't help myself. 
I probably will never tell you this and that's okay. I know you are happy , so I won't say. 
I would never come to destroyed it and I'm truly happy for your life now. ♥

The way we talked , you made me smile even though I don't really know all about you. But I feel comfortable around you. Cheh , around you. HAHAHA. I know that all of this is insane. But why do I still like you in a way I shouldn't , in a way I know you'll never see me , it's just amazing.

It seems you are almost too good to be true. You are sweet , I swear ! And you are nice . You know , I'm just a girl who knows she feels something she shouldn't and who just wishes one day she'll be happy as you are now. And even though she knows it will never happen , she would like to be more to you than just a friend.

You are not for me , but that doesn't stop me from wanting you. I know deep down inside of me that I'm somewhere I'm not supposed to be.

And to be the one for you , when the one for you already exist. I can add a mile , but I'll never measure up and still I want to try because that's what people do. You know , when I'm with you , it's beautiful but I always feel that I'm somewhere I'm not supposed to be. But , I won't be fool , not for you and not for me. Okay ?

Well , I guess this one is now long enough but maybe who knows one day you'll read this and know it's you. If that day comes , please don't blame me for feeling like this. It's you who made me go a bit insane. It's because of who you are , I feel this way.

Yes , I like you more than you know and even though I know it will never happen...

Allah knows everything.. 

Thank you , Mr. Handsome ♥

 Me....

A girl who always love you.

Listen!! she got a story.

Bismillah..

Assalamu'alaikum warahmatullah...

 

I've been a bit busy lately with so much things to be done - assignments , tests and quizzes. But , don't worry. I'm very much alive. HAHA

 

 

 

Semakin nak hujung semester, makin tu la banyak test dan assignment untuk disiapkan. menguji ketabahan,kesabaran dan ke'tension'an saya...Kehidupan yang baru ini, kehidupan yang lebih menguji. Sibuk dan jadual padat lagi ketat.

I got tests on Tuesday, submit report and etc...hmmm.....I feel nervous. Like seriously. But I didn't really prepare much other than studying for my Science Management few days ago. I didn't have much time to cover all those subjects. I didn't even bring my books to study. But , whatever it is , Insha'llah , I'll try my best.

Lagi berapa hari kah ?

24 hari ! OMG

Assignment banyak tak settle lagi and semuanya perlu submit in the  end of month..Gila banyak. Ikutkan hati, nak je hire pembantu barang seorang dua (eceh..ceh..ceh !!) . Tapi sebab ikut hati nanti mati, jadi jangan ikut hati..ye dak?? Over the top , kan ? Haven't got time to watch a movie. Kalau boleh semua benda nak buat. Tapi tak cukup masa. Bila nak start study ni , Nurul (?) 

 ermmmm................bosannyaaaaaa hidup...nak kahwin x de calon....hahaha

Semoga Allah mempermudahkan jalan kami semua. InsyaAllah, Amin.

Well , at least I'm still alive and can breath. Alhamdulillah..

Ingat pesan one of my friend , He once told me ,

'MALAS PUNCA GAGAL'

Keep that in mind!!

 I'm tired and I'm straving. -.-

Semoga saya kuat..

Longed 4 This Moment:)

buhsan tunggu kete xsampai2 nih! 

aloloo..cik zaty kiterrr.....

hehe

 3 sahabat baik..haha

kebuhsanan again..huhu

movie time^^

 cheese!!

 Makan yuuukk!!!

kawan2 saya yg kiut miut semua :p 

~miss this moment~

thanks so far

 Saya sangat gembira hari ini, hangout with kawan2 saya.

Bergosip, tangkap gambar, tengok cerita Sanctum.

Best sangat cerita tue, punye concentrate sampai tak ingat dunia.

study tak gitu pulak yeee......^^hehe

p/s : perasan tak ? tengok cerita lain tangkap gambar dengan poster cerita lain ? HAHA. :D

Sanctum memang best!! ^^

 

Film Sanctum..This film inspired by a true story..

Pilihan saya untuk tengok cerita ni memang tepat..

I love the whole story...Their emotion memang buat macam saya ada dalam situasi yang sama....

Cerita ni kebanyakan shoot dalam Gua...So, watak utama dia Frank & Josh..

Diorang ni anak beranak...Tapi anak dia mcm benci sangat2 kat ayah dia..

Sepanjang cerita ni, dapat la korang tengok cmne diorang terperangkap 

& nak survive keluar dari gua tu..

Korang akan tengok cmne setiap sorang antara yang ada dalam gua tu mati 

& akhirnya hanya Josh yang selamat....

Time Josh's Dad nk mati tu, memang saya rasa cm sedih giler hiks hiks hiks 

(menangis dalam panggung)

coz his dad mintak anak dia sendiri percepatkan masa untuk bapa dia mati 

& Josh terpaksa melemaskan bapa dia sendiri...saya rasa sedih gila time tu..Huhuhu...

 

So, pada orang lain saya tak tau la pendapat diorang but for me, i give ★★★★... (^_^)

Wahai encik semangat datanglah kepadaku..Datanglah!! Datanglah!

 Hye...

 time ni orang study management science, saya study blog..dah pandai sangat ke??dah ready ke nak jawab sok??

bukan tulah sebabnya..saya hilang mood sebab saya take a nap tadi..xtido ngantuk kalau tdo bangun xde mood..so biar lah saya bersiar2 di blog tuk mencari encik mood kot2 beliau ada di sini..^^

sometime waktu saya alpa saya selalu membuat persoalan..kenapa lah saya xdikurniakan IQ yang super..xyah study lebeh2 fokus dalam kelas je dah boleh ingt sampai bila2..xpun bace sekali dah trus paham n lekat dalam kepala..bila saya tersedar..saya kufur nikmat ke time tu??xbersyukur kah saya?? Astafirullah....

bila saya tersedar..saya berfikir balik..macam sekarang ni adalah lebeh baik berbanding ngan orang2 yang lebeh xbernasib baik dari saya..paham x ayat ni??xpaham bace banyak2 kali kasi paham..usaha tangga bertingkat2 kan??

saya ni xtetap pendirian skit..banyak kot sebenarnya..kalau saya rasa susah saya mudah putus asa..nak quit halfway..tapi bila saya tengok orang lain berjaya semangat saya pun berkobar2..maknanya saya kena selalu berdamping ngan orang yang berjaya..

adoihai cita2 besar usaha kecik..macam mana ni??

 ooooooooohhhhhh.....tuan semangat......

plzzz....plzzzz......plzzz......

I'm begging u........

datanglah padaku......datanglah mendampingiku.....(hehehehe)

p/s : suMe i wat utK diri i jugak..xde saPe yg leh ubaH if i sendri yg xubah rite...

Baiklah lets do this..haha..

      

 

Aja aja fighting!!!

Akhir kata, tiada kata dapat diucapkan lagi...
Wallahu'alam...

Salam Sayang Salam Kerinduan

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Assalamualaikum wbt...

Tika meniti perjalanan panjang menuju destinasi ilmu...

terlintas difikirku akan senyumanmu:)

Mengenaliku dalam cahaya yang samar

dan aku bahagia menjadi sahabatmu...

Selamat malam buatmu walau di mana engkau berada. 

Terima kasih kerana pernah memberi hati 

walau sentuhannya hanya sebuah keakraban

Terima kasih kerana pernah mengirim pesan 

walau hanya bertanyakan khabar dan menyampaikan senyuman. 

Terima kasih Wahai Yang Maha Penyayang… 

kerana sentuhan cinta dan rindu dariMU, 

tidak pernah menyalahkan aku untuk mencintai dia sehingga kini, juga untuk selamanya.

Akhirnya aku larut dalam kerinduanku di sepertiga malam, 

mendakap kasih Ilahi,  membelai cintaku pada Yang Maha Perkasa. 

Menghalusi rindu yang tak pernah hilang, 

memohon agar cinta yang bakal hadir berwadahkan ketinggian cintaNya.

Tuhanku… 

di sisiMU aku menyerah diri… 

mencintaiMU sepenuh hati dan ragaku. 

Ampunilah aku kerana pernah menyintai seorang lelaki walau hanya seketika...

Dear someone...

Bila sesekali..

Aku mengenangmu dari kejauhan ini..

Senyumanmu jadi padu dalam ingatan..

Kerna...

Sesekali...

Aku ingin melihat senyumanmu itu...

; ITULAH YANG SERING AKU RINDU...

Salam sayang.....Salam dari kejauhan,

Salam kerinduan...Salam kasih dan sayang...

 

Salam sayang..

Semoga kamu terus dirahmati,

Semoga kamu terus dilimpahi,

dengan cahaya cinta DIA dan mereka,

dan cahaya kerdipku tetap di sini...

 

Salam sayang...

Teristimewa hanya dirimu,

Terukir indah cuma namamu

di hati dan mekar di bibirku...

 

miss u lots dear^^

~cahya hatimu~

PS: cintaku bukan diatas kertas, cintaku bukan dalam blog, cintaku dihatimu
sorry malam ni berlaku kejiwangan terhadap diriku:)

keh keh keh...