Semakin Membesar

Stress..stress..stress..banyak betul dugaan & ujian yang saya perlu lalui tahun ni..sabar je la kan? Nak buat camne..Tapi seriously rasa annoying 'tak betul' pun ada juga. Sebab apa? One of the reason is when  i see my butt and my thigh, rasa macam nak kill myself ~~.

I am (dot..dot..dot..kgs) and I am 164cm's and I am apparently getting fatter already. I never really thought of myself as skinny but I'd like to. What can I do to start becoming slimmer? Kene control makan ke? Please don't tell me to accept myself for what I am. I'm not asking to become model or anything. I just want to loose weight because I look like pooh bear at the moment. I lost confident level, sumpah. I know I'm a big eater. I hate when that happens and I hate being fat.

Kenapa lately asyik fikir pasal my butt and my thigh? Entah lah, mungkin sebab dah penat ada saiz macam ini saja and baju pulak banyak dah tak boleh pakai. Belum kawen lagi dah mcm gini rupenya apatah lagi kalau dah kawen nanti. Oh can't imagine that. Suami mana yang tak nak isteri dia nampak cantik, pandai jaga family and pandai jaga diri sendiri jugak.
kan kan sayang? Tapi, kalau awak gemuk ke, buncit ke, saya tak kesah. Sayang saya tak pernah berubah, saya terima seadanya diri awak. maklumla saya kan pandai masak (eceh..ceh.cehh!) ofcourse la awak jadi gemuk.HAHA

Saya rasa lemak kat situ dah tepu, saturated fat. Sekarang hidup tak berapa nak relaks sangat, quit busy everyday. But saya nak try jugaklah berjinak-jinak balik untuk buat senaman like jogging ke *determine saja, ha-ha. Senaman konon. first2 semangat lah..2week after...Ha-ha ( i think you know what i mean). Bangun pagi pun susah.Pantang nampak makanan, laju saja. What should I do now? I tried to do squating exercise, for 2 days now. Kita tengok lagi seminggu turun tak ukur lilit? Ha-ha,  Grr. Sesiapa yang rasa ada idea yang bermanfaat lagi efektif untuk kecilkan lower part aku ini, you can comment me. Pretty please? ...

saya mesti kuat! mesti nekad!

oh really tired........
haiihh-_-